Day Five - Shadoobie

Shattered.

I think I used that word in my last post to describe being bone-crushingly tired.

Which I am... again... today.

We just got back from another round of Disneyland so I am not asking anyone to feel sorry for me. I'm just out of shape and a shade underslept (more on that later.) I told Colin in the car on the way home that we will not be able to continue a twice per week pace of Disneyland time. "I don't want to," he said. Which is good. Because I would die.

Part of the reason to even make the effort this week is to keep Marley busy. She is having some trouble adjusting right now to a full day of school and more responsibility in class. She seems fine when I pick her up and then it all goes down hill from there. She hates school; she is never going back; She hates S____ because he is mean to her; She isn't cut out for school. Then we transition to tantrum fits and yelling over every little thing followed up with distraught tears over things big and small. Disneyland trips keep her occupied from 4 pm to 8 pm and then it's right to bed. It may be exhausting for me but I'm less likely to be snapping at her.

On Sunday I set the following goals for this week:

• Fold the 5 loads of laundry on my dining room table
• Wash the three sinkfuls of dishes in the kitchen
• Keep the house picked up
• Clean the back bathroom
• Not spend too much money
• Not yell at my kids
• Not be so absorbed by this computer and blogosphere that I don't pay any attention to them
• Finish my book club book.
• Seek first the kingdom of God and let the rest work itself out

As of tonight:

• No laundry has been folded
• Only dishes that I've needed to use have been washed
• I did empty the trash in the back bathroom as part of a de-trashing of the house. Something was stinky so I dealt with the obvious suspect first.
• The Disney passes are a wash because unexpected money came in for that
• I've been a little snappish but haven't really yelled at the kids this week (so far)
• Utterly failed not to be sucked into the blog'verse but have still paid attention to kids thanks to Disneyland
• Finished House of Mirth but missed book club
• God, who? Complete failure at seeking God this week.

I do excuse myself a little. I didn't get to bed early enough the last two nights and there has been a minor CPAP relapse. Whooo! I can tell that I'm short on sleep. Tonight, I'm a good girl. 10 pm bedtime and renewed effort at CPAP. The new mask is in. Last night I think I had it on too tight. I spent some time fiddling with it today so I think I'm in good shape.

There you have it.

Shadoobie.